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to Allah we shall return eternally, to face the real of reality.

Hi? How'd have you been? it has been too long since I last met you here, right?  up to six-seven years I assumed? long story short, six years with ups and downs: battling with some serious issues of mental health, jinxing your lowest self-esteem, barely to breathe, couldn't choose which way leads to wider horizon of promising life [financial and career I supposed?] all these things keep me anxious about future though I know I do not hold it... only He does. and yeah now I'm facing with a serious issue of body health (still a shocking news to me) I'm sure He loves me unconditionally *wipe tears. well it definitely a hard-rock ship coursing my undergrad life. not a smooth sailing told ya. but I'd say I definitely made it, yes I was. obviously with His helps and grace upon me. you can tell my eyes, they're holding pure liquid-crystal-white whenever the storms started to shake my mind; Oct 19th, 2021 // 12 RA 1443H ;(it was The Prophet Muhammad's birthday, peace

Jannah? Passport Please.

Bismillahirahhmanirahim.
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"Ruginya Kamu Tidak Mahu Taubat!"

Dessuuppp!
Tepat menuju ke dalam hati, rugikan taknak laksanakan tuntutan
Yang menghubungkan kita kepada Tuhan.
Rugi woo.
Rugi sangat.
Cuma kita saja yang malas dan sangatlah malas.
Itulah penyakit umat.

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Then, I think I should go on to continue this writing.
Let me remember myself.

"Istighfarlah walaupun kamu penat.
Istighfarlah sehingga kamu dapat merasai nikmatnya.
Istighfarlah sehingga nyawa kamu hampiri tenat.
Istighfarlah agar dapat jiwamu semula"

Astaghfirullahalaziim.

Ringkas,
Namun mampu menyuci dosa yang berkarat,
Jika tepat dengan landasan niat.

Awak, awak, awak,
pomissssss yaa.
Jangan ulangi maksiat.
Takut tak sempat taubat,
Saat tu dah kaburnya pandangan,
Baru nak cari Tuhan.

Astagfirullahalazim.
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Once again, I very like to remember myself again, again and again.
*Kesat air mata*

Insan yang tak sempurna,
Bersihkanlah noda yang ada.
Mohon hanya pada Yang Berkuasa.
Titiskan air mata penyesalan sepenuh jiwa.
Menginsafi khilaf diri seikhlas rela.
Tiada yang kekal melainkan Dia.
Dunia sekadar pinjaman seketika.
Permainan yang meragut taqwa.
Ubahlah.

Ubah!
Aku nak Redha Allah!
Bukan mahu bermegah.
Tolonglah.
Aku takut siksa azab neraka Allah.


Lelahnya aku nak seret kaki ini lagi.
Tapi Tuhan tak jemu beri peluang.
Aku yang cepat putus asa untuk perbaiki diri.
Padahal Allah tak pernah putus asa memberi kita satu ruang.
Ruang yang cukup mendamaikan hati.
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"Biarpun dosa menggunung,
Godaan nafsu sukar terbendung.
Namun rahmat dan kasih sayang Yang Maha Agung,
Tiada siapa dapat menghitung.
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Pedang Allah?
Mana pedang Allah?
Here.

"Taubat"

Allah.
*Kesat air mata*

Selamat tinggal.

Comments

  1. Subhanallah,,hebat nukilan kamu,,terkesan di hati.
    teruskan menulis.

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  2. Allahhh.. :'( Ya Allah.. ampun segala dosa kami.. berikanlah kami kekuatan untuk terus mencari redha Mu..

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